right now it feels like my life has come to a halt. i'm back home for another five months, where i won't have anything to really do except get a job. the people i know are moving on through their lives and the people i meet, i won't be near them for very long.

there's a certain anxiety that comes with knowing that everything is on hold for a while. but hopefully, by next autumn, i'll be on my way to a new school in a new city far away from what has become all too familiar. maybe then my life will start to change for the better.