delayed
i have been living quite sometime with a condition called delayed sleep-phase syndrome (dsps). it causes my sleep and wake times occur at inappropriate times of day. at least in the sense of happening in a manner conducive to a relatively normal life.
this causes a great deal of stress, as i have great difficulty waking in time for school/work/et cetera. similarly, i am unwillingly exempted from social endeavors. the only people i consistently associate with are people that are likewise nocturnal by nature.
i have grown to appreciate the night time: following moon phases and searching for constellations while admiring the expanses of the local arboretum after hours.
however, i am still left with an inordinate amount of time during which i am left solely to my own devices.
my days no longer make sense; every day is a struggle to fulfill my currently unidentified role in society without needing to sleep in the middle of it. time itself seems to be melting into a pool of which i know not the depth.
this causes a great deal of stress, as i have great difficulty waking in time for school/work/et cetera. similarly, i am unwillingly exempted from social endeavors. the only people i consistently associate with are people that are likewise nocturnal by nature.
i have grown to appreciate the night time: following moon phases and searching for constellations while admiring the expanses of the local arboretum after hours.
however, i am still left with an inordinate amount of time during which i am left solely to my own devices.
my days no longer make sense; every day is a struggle to fulfill my currently unidentified role in society without needing to sleep in the middle of it. time itself seems to be melting into a pool of which i know not the depth.
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