i'm feeling rather prolific tonight, so i'm posting again on another topic.

i mentioned in my last post my desire to become ein übermensch. for those of you unfamiliar with the concept, i would recommend reading the wikipedia article on it, as any explanation i can give will not properly do it justice.

i am coming to realize more and more the crutches i utilize to make it relatively comfortably through my life. movies, music and games; these are my vices.

they act as distractions to keep me from thinking too much and losing myself in my thoughts. these hinder my growth as a person as instead of dealing with my problems or experiencing things outside of the comfort of my room, i retreat to a place where i can associate with charismatic characters dealing with extraordinary difficulties that make my own pale in comparison.

i am more compelled now to leave behind whatever life i have created for myself in my hometown. by staying here, i am not thinking for myself. i am just part of the herd.

i am jack's existential crisis.